A peek at what a mom is really thinking sometimes...

   It's been a long week. As most of you know I home school our youngest son, Nathan. It is also common knowledge that Nathan is "challenging" if you will. He is determined, strong willed, and creative. He is passionate about the things he is interested in and not afraid of adventure. These are all qualities that I love in him and will help develop him into a strong adult.
   As a mom it is written somewhere in our DNA to always say kind things about our children. Especially in front of other mothers. Because of that it took me a long time to create that politically correct description of Nathan that you just read. In reality, that description was code for...
  "He won't listen for anything, It's his way or the highway,  destructive as the Tasmanian Devil, thinks whatever he has to say is more important, and if he runs off on another "adventure" I'm gonna chip him!"
But, that would be horrible to say about my sweet, creative, future leader so you will NEVER hear me say that...out loud. lol!
   I do love that little boy! Despite the extra effort it requires to parent him, I miss the little Taz when he isn't around. I guess a person gets used to the crazy that has become their norm.
   Today I had big plans. My daughter was gone to a friends house, and Robert had decided to take the boys out for a guys only day. It was actually at the request of Nathan. I immediately got excited at the thought of a kid free day.
   My plans were simple. Laundry (because it's my obsession!), cleaning house, and some laying around. It was also a real possibility that I would not get out of my pj's. The real joy in this plan was that it would be uninterrupted. No stopping anything to fix someone lunch, help them find something, or be told how bored they were. No listening to a child start a story with ...."on Good Luck Charlie yesterday..." then feel your eyes glaze over ten minutes later as your child continues telling you the entire episode word for word!
   No, it was going to be all about me and what I did or didn't feel like doing. But alas, it would not be.
Nathan, who requested this boys day, bailed on Robert and Zach to stay home with me! No matter how much I tried to talk him into it he wouldn't go.
   I almost offered him money to go, but thought that might be taking it too far.
   Robert said it was no big deal, but realized differently when he saw me tearing up. I know, what a baby right, but I felt robbed. Like a kid being given a piece of chocolate only to have it taken away right before they plopped it in their mouth.
   Being a homeschooler means you and your child 24/7! I love homeschooling and LOVE my kids, but momma needs a break sometimes.
   Nathan ended up staying with me today and it's been fine. I only teared up for a moment as I watched my do nothing day slip out of my hands. lol! I had my mommy hat back on before the boys even left.  And five minutes later when Nathan hollered from the living room  to please fix him a drink I just smiled.
   The fact is, how can a momma be upset about her baby wanting to spend the day with her?